Nectar

You will never know
the courage it took
to look you in the eyes
and tell you 
I am not happy.
How much of me it took
to let all my fears trickle out
from my fingertips and fall
into your lap
like honey spilling down your shirt.
And when I did,
you told me "Everybody has pain".
So i watched you
swipe your own fingers
into my feelings 
and lick them like a sticky mess
you wanted gone.
And I finally learnt what it felt like
to be abandoned
by people I called friends.